Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Akala ko lang pala

Madame na akong naisulat na kwento, mga one shots, tula at kung ano-ano pa at lahat ng iyon kundi nasa papel ay nasa laptop ko. Karamihan kasi sa kwento ko ay nasa kalahati, hindi ko matapos tapos at ang lagi kong tanong ay bakit? Bakit nga ba? Siguro isa sa dahilan ay ang walang closure kong naging relasyon (isisi daw ba doon?), o kaya maari rin na dahil sa hindi pa sapat yung mga napag daanan ko. Kaso ang tanong, paano nga ba masasabi kung sapat na ang napag daanan mo? Para ka na ring nag tanong na gaano kadalas ang minsan hindi ba? Anong connect ng hindi natatapos kong mga stories sa walang closure at hindi sapat na napag daanan? Sabi nga kasi ng karamihan ang magagaling ng writers humuhugot sa mga pinagdaanan.

Age doesn’t defy how a person loves. Unexpected naman kase ang love di ba and mostly it comes in the most unexpected way and time. Minsan dumarating saten yun ng matanda na tayo, o nasa edad na at minsan naman masyado pang bata kung dumating ito. Pero age are just numbers, it doesn’t hold the value of love and it do not define how a person can love and up to what extent they can. Naalala ko pa kung paano tayo nag kakilala. Parang nasa loob nga tayo ng isang movie eh. Tamang pang love story yung scenario ng pagkikita naten at kung paano tayo nag kita. Perfect definition of romance movies. Naalala ko rin kung paano nag simula tayo as textmates na nauwi sa late night calls, pag o-open ng mga secrets at pag-uusap ng simula sa may sense hanggang sa nonsense. Nakakatuwang balikan yung alaalang ‘yon, sinabi mo pa kasi sa akin noon kung sino ang crush mo, at nakita ko oa kung paano mo pormahan ito. Hindi lang dun, nag karoon ka pa ng girlfriend sa araw ng nag decide akong umamin sa’yo. Painful is an understatement, umasa kasi ako noon na pwedeng mag karoon ng “tayo”. Sino ba namang hindi, eh parang tayo ang kaibahan lang walang label. Pero nag milagro kasi, naging tayo. Sabi ng iba noon baka daw panakip butas mo lang ako but I shrugged it off, mas naniwala ako sa’yo at pinang hawakan ko ang bawat salita at kilos mo. And you prove them wrong kasi nag tagal tayo, nag celebrate nga tayo ng anniversary naten eh. Isa sa mga bagay na hindi ko inaakala na mangyayare sa buhay ko kasi sino nga lang ba ako but you, you made me realize I am someone worth having and loving for.  Dumating ang March at nag simula akong magi sip ng kung ano-ano. Paranoid kung tawagin mo at ng barkada. Sinong hindi? Sa loob ng apat na taon parehong mga mukha ang nakikita at nakakasama ko tapos sa susunod na pasukan hindi na, yung maliit na mundo ko lalaki na dahil sa isang university na ako mag-aaral at higit sa lahat natatakot akong mag karoon ng gap tayong dalawa noon. Sabin g barkada “malapit lang naman ang school mo sa amin, ang bahay mo at bahay niya malapit lang rin”, tama naman sila pero iba parin, swear, lalo yung thought na sila mag kakasama parin at ako mahihiwalay. Bakit ba kasi ako nag paka sipag mag aral ayan tumalon tuloy ako ng isang taon, kung hindi malamang same year level lang ako nila, niya. Pero wa;a, kailangang harapin ang reality, hindi na kame mag kasama pero at least may pinanghahawakan na ako, kase alam kong mayroong “kame”. Ayos naman yung mga unang buwan. Napupunan ng mga text messages at tawag ang hindi namen pagkikita, minsan dumadalaw ako sa school nila para makita siya at ang barkada. Akala ko maayos ang lahat. Akala ko lang pala.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

I will not be a hypocrite. I am jealous sometimes with the couples around me. Specially those who are so proud of what they have that the they could even shout to the whole world how much they love each other. You might ask then, just like my friends "then why don’t you get a boyfriend and be in a relationship?". It looks easy, but it never was, and never will be. Why? I had been in a really rough relationship, I know it’s not an excuse but each time after that, when I think I might be starting something new in love, everything suddenly screw up and I get back into feeling afraid that what happened before might happen again. You might think it’s pathetic tho, that I think that way but when you are the one in the situation, I bet, you’ll feel what I feel today. 

But you know, I miss being in love and being loved, in a romantic way. I miss having someone being afraid you might get cold when you run in the rain. I miss having someone telling you that you should always take care. Someone who will say your beautiful even though you just got out from bed, your hair messy and your eyes still have a morning glory. Someone who will kiss you tho you’ve just eaten a crab, or a squid, or because they just feel kissing you. Someone who will hug you when you need to be hugged. Someone who is willing to sit down with you in a coffee shop, not talking, just reading. Someone who will get jealous with the fiction characters you’ve read because you always talked about them, but will accompany you in every book signing you want o be in. Someone who will wipe your tears away. Someone who is willing to tell you over and over again how much you mean to him. Someone who will fight for the both of you even when you’re at the edge of giving up. Someone who will say "mahal kita" instead of just "I love you".

Then, why still choose to be single?

I’m not being bitter, or picky here. I just miss having those feelings, but I just think i’m not yet ready to be in a relationship. WHY? I don’t know, maybe because, “that someone” hasn’t made his way to me yet. “He” hasn’t made me take risks and fall for him.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

My What If's→


pauii018:

What If I did not meet you?

am I still hurt like this?

am I still crying?

am I still left hanging?

am I still suffering this loneliness ‘cause you’re somewhere I couldn’t reach.

What If I did not meet you? probably I will not know:

the feeling of being in love and being loved

the feeling…

Monday, June 16, 2014

Lecheng Pagibig to'→


engineerchinito:

Hihinga ka ng malalim pero yung bigat ng situasyon nandoon at nandoon pa din. Walang magbabago. Uulitin mo ng uulitin humihiling na sana kasama ng paghinga mo eh kasama na yung problemang dinadala mo. Kung ganoon lang kadali ang lahat sana nabawasan yung mga gabing nasayang na inisip-isip mo ang…

this is love, it’s painful at times pero wala kang magagawa kundi ang mahalin siya. Relate much ako! haha

Monday, June 16, 2014
Love is..

Love is painful
Love is sweet
Love is strong
Love is weak

Love is a word that demands to be felt
Love is worth to take as a risk so it would be felt
Love is great
Love is pure.

Love is wonderful in all it’s aspect, whether it hurts sometimes or it just makes you happy.
Love can make or break a person but love will always be a part of everyone’s life.
People thought that love is hard to find but in reality it’s just sitting around the corner,
Waiting to be seen, waiting to be felt, waiting to be recognize.


Love is a mother carrying a child, swaying and singing a lullaby,
It’s when a father makes his child sit on his lap and tell stories that makes them laugh,
Love is a beggar who gives his last piece of sandwich to a stray dog,
Love is when a person see beauty in an imperfect world.

Love is thee
Love is thy
Love is us
Love is God.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

We define beauty different from each other. As for me, beauty is when we laugh our hearts out tho we’re in a crowd, eating the food we want, reading books, going to different places, conquering fears, watching movies, drinking a cup of coffee, seeing old couples, playing games, trying fun and extreme rides. For me, beauty is simply living our every day life and having fun.

Friday, June 6, 2014
iamlesliemai:

pauii018:

I know this is a bit of late reaction but WTH! At last we have a picture together! (tho it’s edited) hahahahaha. Okay drama mode on.

As Resyo said to his message to me last Christmas (if I remember it right) we are the roses he found lying in a cemetery, and they are the same to me. Hey guys, if ever you see this I just want you three to know that I am really GRATEFUL and BLESSED to have come to know people like you. Who would’ve thought right? That we will found a friendship that well, for keeps in the cyber world.

SHANE. Kahit na minsan may pag ka crazy ka at natatakot ako sa bigla bigla mong pagka wala sa fb, thank you for everything. We might not have seen each other in personal, yet, pero alam ko na kapag nagkita tayo kulang sa atin ang isang buong araw sa kwentuhan. You’re a one smart girl (well pati din naman sila Les) and I am so proud to be your friend. For sure you have a lot of insecurities and fears but what I love the most about you is you never fail to smile even tho you are already in the verge of giving in in your weakness. I can’t promise to be always around because I know I won’t be, but please remember that someone believes in you and everything that you can do. :)

RESYO. Ayoko ng Justin, ples lang! hahaha. You lucky ass! kung ano kina optimist mo pag dating sa ibang tao tsaka naman napaka nega mo pag dating sa sarili mo.Believe me when I say you’re more than what people think of you. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes, kasama yun sa buhay and it’s part of growing up. And remember this, isa lang ang gusto kong maging bayad mo sa lahat ng naitulong ko sa’yo, and that is for you to have a wonderful and successful life. Hardships will always be there and I hope hindi ka papatinag ng basta basta. Kahit na inaasar ka namen, we are always here for you.

LESLIE. Kailangan ko pa bang may sabihin sa’yo? Hahaha.. getting to know you seems that I have found my long lost sister. We became inseparable since the day we met. Hahahaha.. I really don’t remember how did it happene but we just clicked! andthe next thing I know, we were already going out for. I am so glad I met you. I know that one day you’ll fall i love, and I can’t wait for that to happen (ng maasar ka sa pagiging corny) hahaha. You’re one of the brave people I have known. Despite of everything that happened to your family and to you, ayan ka parin, standing tall and head held high (literally and figuratively). Be strong okay? but it’s okay to be weak and cry some time, and when that time comes. i’ll be here for you, we will be here.


I have a wish guys, sana may picture ako kasama kayo ng naka black toga. I would really love to see you guys come down from the stage holding your diploma. :D 
No one knows what will be the four of us in the near future. Sino mag kaka asaw of boyfriend, or bagong gf (wag na muna hahaha) bu i’m sure with one thing, you three already have a very special place in my heart and mind. :) cheesy man ‘to guys but I love you guys :D

As if naman mag-aasawa ako HAHAHA I’ll be happy seeing you guys tie a knot. Makikikain na lang ako sa reception. And Cher, hindi mo kakayanin pag ako ang umiyak HAHAHA!

We’ll see kapag umiyak ka! HAHAHAHA
Friday, June 6, 2014
I know this is a bit of late reaction but WTH! At last we have a picture together! (tho it’s edited) hahahahaha. Okay drama mode on.

As Resyo said to his message to me last Christmas (if I remember it right) we are the roses he found lying in a cemetery, and they are the same to me. Hey guys, if ever you see this I just want you three to know that I am really GRATEFUL and BLESSED to have come to know people like you. Who would’ve thought right? That we will found a friendship that well, for keeps in the cyber world.

SHANE. Kahit na minsan may pag ka crazy ka at natatakot ako sa bigla bigla mong pagka wala sa fb, thank you for everything. We might not have seen each other in personal, yet, pero alam ko na kapag nagkita tayo kulang sa atin ang isang buong araw sa kwentuhan. You’re a one smart girl (well pati din naman sila Les) and I am so proud to be your friend. For sure you have a lot of insecurities and fears but what I love the most about you is you never fail to smile even tho you are already in the verge of giving in in your weakness. I can’t promise to be always around because I know I won’t be, but please remember that someone believes in you and everything that you can do. :)

RESYO. Ayoko ng Justin, ples lang! hahaha. You lucky ass! kung ano kina optimist mo pag dating sa ibang tao tsaka naman napaka nega mo pag dating sa sarili mo.Believe me when I say you’re more than what people think of you. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes, kasama yun sa buhay and it’s part of growing up. And remember this, isa lang ang gusto kong maging bayad mo sa lahat ng naitulong ko sa’yo, and that is for you to have a wonderful and successful life. Hardships will always be there and I hope hindi ka papatinag ng basta basta. Kahit na inaasar ka namen, we are always here for you.

LESLIE. Kailangan ko pa bang may sabihin sa’yo? Hahaha.. getting to know you seems that I have found my long lost sister. We became inseparable since the day we met. Hahahaha.. I really don’t remember how did it happened but we just clicked! and the next thing I know, we were already going out almost every day! I am so glad I met you. I know that one day you’ll fall in love, and I can’t wait for that to happen (ng maasar ka sa pagiging corny) hahaha. You’re one of the brave people I have known. Despite of everything that happened to your family and to you, ayan ka parin, standing tall and head held high (literally and figuratively). Be strong okay? but it’s okay to be weak and cry some time, and when that time comes. i’ll be here for you, we will be here.


I have a wish guys, sana may picture ako kasama kayo ng naka black toga. I would really love to see you guys come down from the stage holding your diploma. :D 
No one knows what will be the four of us in the near future. Sino mag kaka asawa or boyfriend, or bagong gf (wag na muna hahaha) but i’m sure with one thing, you three already have a very special place in my heart and mind. :) cheesy man ‘to guys but I love you guys :D
Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Kahit pala ilang beses mo ipaalala sa sarili mo na nasa reality ka, you’ll still cross the line between it and fiction. Dahil minsan sa buhay mo papangarapin mo ang buhay ng bida sa isang kuwentong binasa mo. When everything seems to be in their right places tsaka mo lang maalala na oo nga pala, Life is not like a fairy tale where every body has a happy ending.

Friday, May 30, 2014

TIPS ni Pauii during board exam

#1 Get enough sleep. You’ll need it para hindi pipikit pikit ang mata sa exam, para hindi narin magahol sa oras.

#2 Eat. You’ll need it during the exam. Sabi nga nila kapag may laman ang tiyan makakapag isip si utak ng mabuti.

#3 Don’t pressure yourself. It’s okay to have a goal na mag top sa exam but don’t pressure yourself, it makes you forget what you learn.

#4 Relax. A week before the exam dapat chilax ka na. Relax your body and mind. I tell you it works kase you’re at peace, makakapg isip ka ng mabuti.

#5 Laugh. It helps you calm :)

#6 Pray. Nothing beats a prayer.

#7 Give your BEST shot during the exam. You’ll be given what’s rightfully yours. :)


Pero ang number 1 Tip ay ang tiwala sa sarili ar sa diyos :)

Thursday, May 22, 2014
Anonymous asked:
Url po nila?

Ahhhmmm…. Just ask them? Hindi ko kase kabisado :)

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

I wish to meet a guy who would like me even though i’m not an inch near the definition of sexy. A guy who would like me even tho my hair is messy and I don’t have make up at all. A guy would love the fact that I wear sneakers, jeans and shirt than high heels, dresses and shorts. A guy who would love to spend time with me in a place full of books, having an afternoon tea, listening to rock songs, eating junks watching thriller movies than eating in a restaurant and shopping. I like to meet a guy who would find my craziness and weirdness amusing. Above all I want to meet the guy who would love me for being, well, me! :)

Wednesday, May 21, 2014
quotediaryofficial:

★★★ more quotes here ★★★
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Anonymous asked:
Sino pa po ba yung ibang fallista na blogger din?

Sino ka muna? Hahaha.. Si pam, les, shane, I think madame.. Sorry now ko lang nasagot message mo madalang akong mag check mg messages dito eh :D

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Yes B is hurt because of Vicky’s memories, Seth’s revelations and maybe still hurt by what Cielo have told her. But who cause those pains anyway? I know she deserves to be happy, everybody does and people should know that happiness is a choice. That everything is a choice we make. Look at Seth, he choose to live, to move forward unlike Barbs. Yes I am hurt for B but i’m hurt more for Seth and Cy, why? Because they really don’t know B’s reasons.

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